will you remember me?

I go through really weird funks where I just look in the mirror and make the "gross, what's that smell"** face at my own reflection. I point out all of my flaws - crooked nose, pimples, acne scarring, uneven skin tone... the list goes on, people!

But recently (like yesterday), I had a few thoughts come to mind: Are people actually looking at my "flaws"? Is that how people will remember me?

I want to be remembered for my sense of humour - for my terrible jokes and ability to lift spirits. I want to be the ‘positive paddy’ in the room, whipping out my sarcastic jokes accompanied by a weird scrunched face or silly voice to make the joke actually funny - I really feel my facial expressions and weird voices are the gateway to my comedy career. 

Those are the things that people are going to remember me by. Not my appearance (well, maybe the short and blonde things). 

I know this is a somewhat “morbid”(?) topic to talk about but it was an eye-opener for me. It reminded me of who I want to be as a person now, today. If you take anything from the rambling above, please let it be that people love you for you, not who see in the mirror (and make a stinky face at).

Finally, with these thoughts going through my mind, I found it time to have a mini photoshoot where I wear cute things and have a public dance party! That always makes me feel more confident and brings me back to loving who I am - you should give it a try! 

 

**I know that 'smell' has nothing to do with my reflection but I feel it gives you a better visualization of the face that I make.

oh, i wanna dance with somebody.

Can't stop, won't stop with the lame lyric titles - or pointing them out!

In a post I shared recently (check it out!) I touched on the topic of my weirdness. Well, this is just a taste of how weird I can get in public places - there were three teenage boys being suspicious in the woods just behind us. 

I am the type of person who shuts down when speaking is involved but if there is music - or in this case, an open field - I can get real weird. And I don't just do it because I feel like. I do it because I want to make someone who feels more awkward than me, less awkward. Does that make sense? For this particular instance, Mark was feeling awkward taking photos in front of the aforementioned teenage boys, so I brought out my sweet dance moves. Did it help him forget the suspicious boys in the woods? Why yes, ma'am, it did. And it put a smile on his face which means I am doing a good job at being his wife! Right? haha!

So, I guess the lesson is this: if you are feeling awkward, be awkward. Making people laugh with minimal talking is, I suppose, somewhat of a talent that I am proud of. 

And the second lesson is: dance like no one is watching when in fact, they are staring at you!

Two questions: What is one special talent you have? And what do you do to get out of or end an awkward situation?

Outfit details: 

  • Shirt: Winners.
  • Pants: American Eagle - side-note: these hi-rise jeggings are SO comfy and stretchy and I love them! 
  • Shoes: Blunstones